Yup, it's a post from me after MIA for 2 months. I'm not sure though if there'll ever be a next post after this from me.
I have a lot of things to say but I just don't have the time to do this anymore. 2nd year of degree is killing me. I've never feel as pressured as now in my 20 years of life.
Not only university, my heart decides to mess with my life as well. FUCK. I don't want to talk about it very much. I want her to get out from my head and heart. Why am I thinking of her all the time? Sometime I just wish that I don't have feelings and emotions.
Thanks to these chaotic messes in my life, I've neglected one of the most important thing in my life, friends. I'm such a horrible friend recently. I want to say I'm sorry as I don't know what's going on with your life anymore.
Damn it! I really want to leave all of these bullshits behind and run away. Any where else as long as it's not here.
I want to cry but it's just a waste of time and energy. They won't go away. They will still be here mocking me and pushing me around.
