Hello??

Yup, it's a post from me after MIA for 2 months. I'm not sure though if there'll ever be a next post after this from me.

I have a lot of things to say but I just don't have the time to do this anymore. 2nd year of degree is killing me. I've never feel as pressured as now in my 20 years of life.

Not only university, my heart decides to mess with my life as well. FUCK. I don't want to talk about it very much. I want her to get out from my head and heart. Why am I thinking of her all the time? Sometime I just wish that I don't have feelings and emotions.

Thanks to these chaotic messes in my life, I've neglected one of the most important thing in my life, friends. I'm such a horrible friend recently. I want to say I'm sorry as I don't know what's going on with your life anymore.

Damn it! I really want to leave all of these bullshits behind and run away. Any where else as long as it's not here.

I want to cry but it's just a waste of time and energy. They won't go away. They will still be here mocking me and pushing me around.

Finals time...again....

Went down to KL despite I need to study for my finals...Got my baby Fed 5c on Saturday!!

Love it so much!! Can't wait to start shooting! :)
Bought Malinda Lo's "Huntress" too when I was there! Her second book after "Ash"...

Just started reading...I'm not a big fans of Fantasy fiction, but I like her book...She's one of my favourite lesbian fiction author...

Officially moved in with my friends when I came back to Kampar. Everything is good and happy but I'd lost my "privacy"...I can't go to my Tumblr and tibette.com...I need my tumblr and tibette fix...

To fill that void, I went to livejournal and surf Archie Panjabi's livejournal community...

I am so obsess with her now! Her face is so perfect!! She's so fucking brilliant as Kalinda Sharma in The Good Wife!! I want her leather jacket and boots!!!

And. I started reading Kalinda / Alicia fan fictions...I have so much love for them now!

Source : http://discardedtracesoflove.tumblr.com/post/4975682141

Before this, I'm kind of a Alicia/Peter shipper...But now, I'm a Kalicia shipper!! Rewatching a few episodes of TGW and flailed over them, even it's a very small interaction...

Can they become canon? I want them to be canon!! Ahhh, I love Kalinda Sharma and Alicia Florrick!!

Vintage Camera FEVER!

So, next month will be my big 20th birthday...And, I'd decided to buy myself a big present! I've been interested in photography since I don't know when. There're a few occasions when I almost buy a lomo camera. After looking around, I found one thing that's even better than lomo cam, vintage camera! Completely head over heels in love with them, especially one, the FED. So vintage, so pretty!

I'm very proud to announce, I will soon become the proud mama of this beauty, FED 5c!

I can't wait to held it in my hands and take tons of pictures using it!

Actually, FED 5c was not the model I spotted and wanted to buy. It was FED 3. But, the retailer doesn't have any stock for FED 3 so I will take this instead. 

I CAN'T WAIT! :)

Ta-da-da-da-ta-da-da

Ignore the title. I don't know what to write so just crapped.

Last Saturday was a super crazy day. The craziness is divided into two types: the one that really can make you go crazy and the other one is the craziness that come out when you're really happy.

Morning: the first type of crazy.
3 continuous tests! MUET reading, writing and listening tests! Damn stress, I tell you! @@

Afternoon: the first type of crazy as well.
Cell Biology mid-term. I don't know how I did. I just vomited everything that is in my head out, that's all.

Night: THE SECOND TYPE OF CRAZY!! FYEAH!
Cell Biology farewell dinner with my lovely coursemates and Ms Alicia!

Although I don't really know all of them. But damn, all of us do know how to have fun! LOL! All I'm gonna say though is that you should feel lucky you weren't there with us! Else...I don't know...You might have lost your eardrums?? xD

After that, straight away headed to pool center with a few of my friends. [Declaration: It was my first time going to a place like this.] I think, pool is quite fun. I would like to play again. :)

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Changed a new theme for my tumblr and added a background image I made myself. I love it and feel so freaking proud of myself! LOL.

It's TiBette, no one else. It'll always be them. And because of them, I'd gained some new followers! It's the most new followers I'd ever gained in one day! So happy now! :)
p/s: will not stop staring at my new theme for a few days!

Earth Hour - 26/3/2011

the only thing that's giving out light in my room

I'm sitting in the dark..turned off my light at 8.30 pm to support Earth Hour...Let's save our earth mother! :)

busy busy life

Life is busy...so many mid-terms and presentations coming up...pfft...I need to stay strong...I shall not be defeated...Just hang on...

Had political science presentation today...One word for it : SUCK...Damn, I think this time it's the worst among all the presentations we had...So sorry to my group members because my lappie died suddenly when we were still presenting.. :(

Tomorrow morning have Pengajian Malaysia mid-terms...Gotta study and memorize...but, before that, nap first...

Taking the nap now..Tata..

first time wearing colour cons..hehe.. :P

Last night at home

[One of my 2011 resolutions : Use and type more Chinese. So...]

糜烂的日子即将要结束，明天，就要回金宝了。也不是舍不得了。只是想到要回到那个死城就有点伤心。不过，下一次回来家的时候就是华人新年了，尽量用这来安慰自己。

昨天趁所有人都在家，就来了个每年新年之前必要的大扫除。

堆在家里个个角落的东西，看起来不多也不怎么碍眼，可是清理起来才知道原来没用处的东西还真多！别说其他地方，单是我的小橱就有好多东西；旧杂志最为夸张。反正堆在那里也没用，所以就先整理它们了。把我要的页面或海报剪下，其余的就丢了。

翻阅旧杂志的时候，发现了好多我以前没发觉的东西！比如：

Medical Investigation's poster!

看到这的时候，兴奋得快大喊了！是 Kelli Williams！虽然只是一小个在海报的一角，不过还是很开心啊！哈哈... 

下一个发现的，让我比发现 MI poster 时更兴奋了...

Tegan and Sara's poster

我都快哭出来了！我终于有她们的海报了！一直以来就怨恨着自己没拥有关于 T&S 的东西。原来，我是一直拥有着的... 感谢你，Galaxie Magazine！我高中时的零用钱果然没白花了。呵呵。正在考虑着要不要带回金宝黏在房间的墙壁上... 真的很喜欢 T&S 和她们的歌啊！:P

剪下了一大堆有关于 CSI、House、30 Rock 的海报和文章后，终于把旧杂志从我的小橱给清走了。我的小橱顿时间多出了好多空间，看起来好空荡哦！呵呵。

接下来整理的是我近几年才开始狂买和收藏的...英文小说。不整理也不知道... 原来，我已经买了很多！都快将近 60 本了！

my LGBT book collection

my most favourite crime fiction, The Millenium Trilogy

my favourite author, Cecelia Ahern's books

my proudest collection, CSI novels!

除了这些，还有很多不同作者的小说。不过，这些是所有我拥有的小说里的最爱，我的宝贝们。哈哈！

之前，所有书都是用空位就放或塞。 昨天就把它们从小橱里拿出来，然后再照着分类重新摆回去。

在清理小橱时，还找到了以前用来藏 “宝贵” 东西的铁盒子。我竟然在里面找到了钱！RM 101！哈哈！

清理了一整天，终于把我的小橱给整理好了！比之前多出了许多空位， 也变得整齐多了！:)

这里整理好了，那么什么时候轮到在金宝的房间呢？

再看吧！打扫和整理这类的活，不是什么时候都能的，得看本小姐的心情！哈！

最后，让我臭美一下。放上今晚出门去生日宴会前的自拍照！>.<

p/s: 今天其实去剪头发了。不过没什么大改变...

Happy 2011!!

Happy New Year!! It's 2011 already!! So fast...I'm unofficial 20!! >.<

Haven't blog for a few weeks..been busy vacationing..LOL! No, seriously..I've been travelling here and there..

Here = Langkawi

Went to Langkawi with my bffs, Sunny, Chien, Yuan and Shian on 28th December..Had a lot fun there with them...Bought a lot of chocolates before we came back!! >.<
Let's do this again. my dears!

Then, I went to...

There = KL & Fraser Hill

LOL..that's my uncle in the background!

On 31st December, New Year's Eve I broke my own record...I drove to KL from Alor Setar all by myself! Impressive isn't it? I'm so brave..LOL..Spent the last night of 2010 at KL...Then, at the 1st day of 2011, went to Fraser Hill with my families...Love going out with them...

The next day, came down from Fraser Hill and....BAAAMMMMM....I fall sick...fever and cough... >.<
I don't know how I did it..But, I managed to drive to Mid Valley alone after swallowing two pills of Panadol...I should've been very high and sleepy after that, but I didn't feel anything...I think it's because the power of BOOKS! xD

Bought these..RM 200 ++ gone...But, don't care...I'm sick, these things make me feel so much better... :P

Is back at home again two days ago, fever is gone, but the cough still torturing me...I'm gonna live the next few days in blur mode because of the super strong cough syrup...I'm even blurring while typing this...So, please bear with the grammar mistakes and spelling errors if there's any...


In the end, I would like to say Happy New Year who drop by my blog and wish all of you have a great year ahead...

p/s: Nothing big happen on me since the start of 2011..However, on the 6th day of this year, today, good thing and bad thing came together...The good thing is Lie To Me and Tim Roth won PCA! [So so happy and congratulations to the crew and casts! FOX. did you see this?? People chosen LTM, they want LTM..Where is the Season 4?? I'm still waiting!!] And, the bad thing is some SOB broke into my hostel! [Argh! You better pray that you haven't steal or damage my 'babies'! Especially, my TLW photobook and JYJ limited edition 'The Beginning'..Else, I'll hunt you down, cut off your balls then throw them into the lake to feed whatever living things live inside it!]

I love December! ♥

Yep. I had a gathering with my sayang-sayang again today! I love it so much this time because almost all of us attended!! Carmen already counted as one of us...She's the 'honorary Asma girl'...LOL!

So we started our hang out session with sang K at Rex Box at 4 o'clock..Erm, is it called Rex Box or Rex-something? Not sure.. :P
Had a lot of fun singing with my lovely sayangs..Ah Biang always kacau people, while Ah Chee fall asleep on the sofa despite all of us making so much noise..Take care of yourself and don't get really sick ya, Ah Chee... :)

Later on, after 3 hours of singing, or 'shouting' for a certain someone [you know who you are..xD], we went for dinner. Our actual plan was having dinner at Miyata, a japanese restaurant but it has stopped operating since last week and we didn't know about it..So, we changed to Swiss Land...I love it so much when we're together..We can just talk and talk and talk without stopping..And, we laughed as if we're at home...That's why we're so noisy when we're together...Perhaps one of the reason is because we're all girls?? xD 

When the dinner was coming to an end...Sunny said the food portion served at Swiss Land was too small, she wasn't full and wanna to eat more...Since Ah Chee is not feeling well, the KSS gang had to go back early and didn't join..The rest us went to Gemilang...The same thing at Swiss Land, we talked craps and laughed a lot... :))

At about 10 p.m., our gathering came to an end...We bid goodbyes and went home...

Ahh, I'm gonna miss this so much when I'm away from my dear sayangs again...Hope there'll be another one in the near future... :D

Day of rotting...

Have been online in the living room with the TV on the whole day today...The perk of Wi-Fi connection...Ahhhh...love it so much!! :P

Though the TV was on the whole time but I didn't watch it..LOL..It's on channel 710, FOX...I only raised my head when there's a 'Lie To Me' commercial!!  I even shouted when I saw this because Kelli Williams was on my TV screen out of sudden...hehe..oops..couldn't control myself.. :P

'Lie To Me' Season 2 is on FOX, Sunday night 8.30pm (7.30pm Jakarta)..Watch, Asian!! WATCH!!! It's an awesome show with super amazing casts!! I'll fly to your house and cut you if you don't!! xD

One of the thing I miss very much when I'm away from home is my little animal 'brother', Juki..It feels so good to be back at home and get to play with him everyday..

Snapshot of Juki

LOL! Look at him!! He always lays like this on the floor everytime when he has nothing better to do!! He can lay there without moving for so long as if he's dead!! So damn cute la!! Geramnyaaaaaaa~~ If he ain't a furry little animal, I would've bite and pinch him everytime I see him!!! :D

Listening to Shayne Ward's album, 'Obsession'...Love it so much!! Liking this song...

Tomorrow gonna meet up with all of my sayangs! We'll sing K then dinner together!! Yeah!! It'll be super exciting! :)

Free... :)

So, I confessed everything yesterday night..Everything..No more hiding...You know all of my secrets now..and, I don't regret letting you know...Thanks for understanding and your acceptance...I'm happy..I feel so free now.. :)

Woke up very late today with a dizzy head and wrecked body...So have to cancel the plan of playing badminton with Carmen...Didn't do anything except for playing a computer game called, 'Mushroom Age'..Not bad, quite nice..Finished the whole game after playing for the whole day...Then, started to play another game called, 'Pastry Passion'..lol..

I think I'll only be playing games for today..Tomorrow onwards will be...WATCHING DRAMAS! Yeah!! Almost finish 'Lost Girl' Season 1 [I love this series so effing much!], and then yesterday started to watch 'Nikita'...After finish Nikita, I think I'll watch 'The Good Wife'...I've been wanting to watch this series for so long..But, I always can't find the time to watch it..Now I finally have the time, I won't let it go.. :P

In the end, I'll like to put up a TiBette fanvid Anne shared on FB today..I miss them so much..Whenever I look at them, I always wander...Will I ever find a love like them? Will I ever meet the Bette to my Tina?

 

Sleep On Fire

[Post title is totally irrelevant...I used the name of the song I'm listening because I can't think of putting what in the title..]

Final exam was over!! Last paper was on Saturday!!

Moral was okay. My head hurts from all the thinking. And, one question had totally infuriated me! It's a LGBT related question. Nothing wrong with the question but I was disgusted by the answer options given. I even wrote 'WTF is this fuckery?' on the option that made me angry the most! FYI: We have to return our question paper after the exam, we couldn't bring them out from the exam hall. I don't know whether they'll check the question paper or not. I don't care. I'm telling them my honest opinion. I'm so awesome! xD

Computer Sys. & App...I think I did okay. I'm hoping to get at least 3.0 *fingers-cross* for this subject since it is the only subject that will carry GPA.

I didn't get much sleep during the finals period. My insomnia are always the worst during this time, I don't know why.

On Saturday after the exam, I got back into my room and planned to online and watch dramas  like nobody else business. But, my house's internet gave up on me! Argh... It was so irritating that time!! However, I did took a 3 hours nap because of it. Woken up by my father's call, saying they (grandparents & sisters) were coming to see me. I couldn't go back to sleep after the phone call, so I did this.

a totally different style with the icons I usually made. IDK if I like it.

I just want to hug her in this scene!! :'(

I am not going to ship Tim and Kelli. They're so cute together!

Look at her eyes!! ZOMG, so beautiful!

[NOTICE: Please credit me if you're reposting them elsewhere! I will cut you if you don't! I'm serious!]

Right, photoshopped Kelli Williams' picture for a few hours. She's my newest actress obsession! I have 6 in my list now! xD

When my dad and grandparents reached here, unexpected change happened. I decided to go to KL!! :P
Stayed at there one night. And, then came back to Kampar again today. Crazy, I know. LOL..

Tomorrow will celebrate start of holidays with friends! hehe...Looking forward to it.. :)

And then, I can't wait to get back to AS! I have so many plans for my holidays already! Also, my father told me we have Wi-Fi at home now!! Wooohooo!! I can online in the comfort of my bed from now on! :D

Oh yeah, almost forgotten about this. FOX had announced that they wouldn't give Lie To Me Season 3 the back-9!! Besides, FOX will only announce the if they'll renew LTM for Season 4 at spring..The fans got super worried so they'd started this Save Lie To Me campaign. Without any doubt, I'm taking part in it!! These are my contributions for the video project.

I like the one at the bottom the most. I'm wearing cap because my hair looks like crap while I was taking the photos. I just got back from KL. I really really love this show. I don't want it to get cancel!! I don't know what I'm gonna do if FOX decided to take Gillian Foster (Kelli Williams), Cal Lightman (Tim Roth) and Callian away from my life!! I probably will cry myself to dead. Yeah. Something like that. :(


p/s: Oh My God! This post is so random! I only realize it when I reread it before I click on the 'Publish Post' button!! Don't care la...I'm too freakin' tired to type a proper post.. xD

Sweet weekend

Went to KL for my weekend again...I went there to celebrate my little cousin, Dy Hong's 1 year old birthday..
On Saturday, went to Mid Valley with my sister and cousins...Bought Dy Hong's birthday gift then we all went to book store...Everybody bought at least one book...LOL..We all love reading!! xD

I bought Numbers by Rachel Ward and WWW:WAKE by Robert J. Sawyer..

Yep, I bought 'The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo' DVD too!! hehe..I couldn't resist myself...I have to add it to my collection!! :P

I'll love to have the other two, 'The Girl Who Played With The Fire' and 'The Girl Who Kicked The Hornets' Nest' too..But I don't think I'll get TGWPWF in Malaysia because of the Miriam & Lisbeth sex scene...pfft...I hate you Malaysia...

When I got back to Kampar, I got a super touching gift from my lovely friend, Zhi Huey. A Christmas card made from a picture of 9 of us together..I love it so much! It'll be going up on my wall for sure!! :)

This pic was taken on the night after my Moral presentation..The first time 9 of us were together again after a very long time...I love it!! hehe..

사랑해, JYJ

Hello! Didn't write any post in the past few weeks because I'm too busy enjoying my holidays! It's the best holidays I'd had since I came to uni.

Especially the last week of my holidays. I didn't do much for the first few days I were there. Then, on Friday, went to Mid Valley with cousin sister and also met up with Hui Bing! We walked around the mall then watched a movie together. Had a lot of fun and laugh..So nice to see her again!! I bought books again when I were there.. >.<

'CSI: Skin Deep' by Jerome Preisler, 'Room' by Emma Donoghue and Entertainment Weekly Magazine!!
I flailed when I saw Jesse and Eric on the cover!! Oh my god, it's Mitchell and Cam!!! I love them so much in 'Modern Family'!! haha..
No need to explain, that's the newest CSI's novel...and, I bought 'Room' because...

Credits: Tim Roth

Because Kelli Effing Williams is reading it!!! I'm hopeless...I know...


On Sunday, 17/10/2010, one of the most exciting day of my life...I ATTENDED JYJ 'THE BEGINNING' SHOWCASE!!!

HOLY SHIT!!! I reached the stadium with my cousin sister at 11 something and there were a lot of people waiting there already!!

Met up with Cathy and Ah Chieng who had been there since 9.30 am..After collecting our goodies bag from Saranghae project, we immediately queued up at Rock Corner booth. Both of us bought the limited edition of 'The Beginning' without any hesitation!! Damn, my money gone just like that...After that, we waited patiently at the entrance..

While we were waiting outside the stadium, we could fucking hear JYJ rehearsing inside!! People were shouting without reason..And, at one point, JYJ were rehearsing 'Chajatta', the fans started to sing along with them..Oh my god, you have no idea how moving I felt at that moment..

After a long excruciating wait, at 3 o'clock, we were finally allowed to go in...

The showcase was AWESOME!! I don't even know how to describe it!! All I can say is I'll never ever forget it!! If you wanna know just go to YouTube and search 'JYJ Malaysia showcase fancam'..You'll get all the videos of that day! They sang LIVE flawlessly even when they're dancing or jumping up and down!! Oh yeah, I have one thing to say...MY HUBBY, HERO JAEJOONG...HE IS A FUCKING VAMPIRE!! HE'S SO DAMN FAIR, HE FUCKING SPARKLE!!  HE WAS SPARKLING ALL THE TIME WHILE THE SHOWCASE WAS GOING ON!! I ALMOST GONE BLIND, NO JOKE!! Anyway, I'm so happy I finally got to see him with my naked eyes.. :)

17/10/2010 - I'll never forget this day! Thanks for giving me the great memories, JYJ!



The look of the limited edition 'The Beginning' and its content..

사랑해, JYJ

FREEDOM!!

YES, I'M DONE WITH FINALS!! The last paper was on Saturday!! I think my result will be very 'beautiful'..Baahahaha..I don't even want to think about it!

Went to Ipoh for a short food hunt and shopping trip with Su Ern and Melissa right after the exam ended!! Ate the famous 'Nga Choi Kai'...yummy...I missed the taste...Oh, met Mr Edwin when we were leaving. Didn't go forward to say 'Hi'...because he was with someone else, and we were too busy gossiping after we saw them...LOL! Then, we headed to Ipoh Parade. We wandered in the mall, laughing all the time, saw a lot of things but didn't buy any though. I only bought one book at Popular. 'The Girl In The Mirror' by Cathy Glass. The actual plan after Ipoh Parade was 'Tong Shui Kai',  but it started to rain. Since we were all tired, so we decided to head back to Kampar.

Drove back to Simpang Empat on Sunday. Tsk. My car...it began to protest...Everything was not fine...Anyway, luckily I reached home without any further problem. At night after dinner, followed grandparents to hospital to visit cousin sister. She was bitten by her dog. I didn't know it was that serious, her wounds were infected. So, she had to undergo surgery to remove the bad part and hospitalized for one week. She just came back to home today. Hope her wounds heal soon!! :)

Today...nothing much...woke up at noon as usual...Then, went to CIMB Bank to bank-in money for the Goodie Packs I ordered at Saranghae Project. The goodie packs are to be used at JYJ showcase on 17th October! Yes! It's true! Ladies and Gentlemen, I am going to see Hero, Micky and Xiah!! Wooooohoooooo~ So exciting!! I'm going to see my Jae Joong oppa, babeh!! I CAN'T WAIT!
After that, when I was on my way coming back home, I suddenly had a crave for laksa. Went to the laksa stall I usually go but it was closed. So, I went to another laksa stall which is near to Carmen's house. Called her, told her where am I and both of us ate laksa together. YUM~ I love laksa!! And, thank you Carmen for treating me!! Muacks!! xD

I'm sure this holidays will be great! Looking forward to hang out with my sayangs! <3

Let the rain come down tonight.

My finals start next Monday. Since my coursework marks for every subjects suck to the max, so I'm going to study like mad. I'm gonna stock myself with caffeine everyday to pull this off! I don't want to flunk any subject! So, WISH ME LUCK!! :)

p/s: Listening to Sara Bareilles's newest album 'Kaleidoscope Heart' and love it! <3

Transformation!!!

I cut my hair today!! I super love it!!! I'm glad I made the right decision!!! Posted my pic on Facebook and my friends gave me positive comments!! yowza!!

This is how my hair look like after I wash off all the styling wax! Still look great isn't it? xD

I'd been thinking of cutting my hair short for a very very long while. But, I wasn't very sure because I scared it doesn't suit me...I scared my hair will go 'kabooooomm' as I have natural curl...Time passed, the urge of cutting my hair short grew greater...Last week, I mentioned the idea to my friends and they encouraged me..So, I searched for pics on the internet, showed them and asked them which style will suit me the next day...After that, I contemplated and decided which style of short hair I want.

Today, accompanied by Wen, Sunny and Yuan [I needed their moreal support!], I went to the saloon recommended by my cousin, De' Hair. Showed the picture to the guy, sat down on the chair and let him did the magic on my hair. Without any hesitation as this is what I'd wanted for so long. The feeling of witnessing yourself transforming into a totally new you, is amazing! I LOVE IT! I really should do this more often!! LOL..

Now, my head feels so much lighter and the greatest thing is that it dries in 15 minutes!!! I LOVE MY NEW LOOK! :)

Vegas

Went to Vegas for dinner with friends...Yes, I went to Vegas...I went to Vegas Kitchery, not the Vegas in US... :P
They sell American style food, and they're well known for their HUMONGOUS burger...I'm not kidding when I say this! The burgers are HUGE!!  Damn full after finish eating everything... @@
The price are very reasonable...You definitely get for what you pay...But, it's still kind of expensive for us, the poor students...lol...I spent RM 9.30 for one 'Vampire Chaser Burger' and a glass of Ice Lemon Tea...

Vampire Chaser Burger. The name because it has fried garlic.

Horn Dog Burger. With 8 inch hot-dog.

Oh boy, I amost LOL when I saw the name and ingredients for this burger. Instantly got full by just thinking about it. The name is soooooo wrong!!! My friends looked like they really enjoy it though.. But, I swear to god, I'll never ever put this thing into my mouth!! xD

B-24 Burger

Lost World Burger

Obama Burger. Bad shot. pfft..

Definitely will go there again when I have saved enough money. The foods are yummy and the service is good. Another addition point of Vegas is they have beautiful decoration! Me like!! :)