Hello??

Yup, it's a post from me after MIA for 2 months. I'm not sure though if there'll ever be a next post after this from me.

I have a lot of things to say but I just don't have the time to do this anymore. 2nd year of degree is killing me. I've never feel as pressured as now in my 20 years of life.

Not only university, my heart decides to mess with my life as well. FUCK. I don't want to talk about it very much. I want her to get out from my head and heart. Why am I thinking of her all the time? Sometime I just wish that I don't have feelings and emotions.

Thanks to these chaotic messes in my life, I've neglected one of the most important thing in my life, friends. I'm such a horrible friend recently. I want to say I'm sorry as I don't know what's going on with your life anymore.

Damn it! I really want to leave all of these bullshits behind and run away. Any where else as long as it's not here.

I want to cry but it's just a waste of time and energy. They won't go away. They will still be here mocking me and pushing me around.

Getting Off

The Good Wife has freaking invaded my mind!! I just can't stop thinking about it..CBS is making it worse by releasing those heart-breaking promos.. T^T

Next week will be the final second episode...Oh god, the Kalinda / Alicia relationship will still be a mess in the season finale and my fragile shipper heart cannot take this...I HAVE TO WAIT FOR 3 MONTHS TO SEE THEM AGAIN! (if it gets pick up for Season 3...IT WILL...or I'll die..)

"You mean someone who hadn't slept with my husband? How was my husband? Was he good?"

Gosh, Alicia...I know you're hurting but this is so harsh...My dear Kalinda... T________T

The promos for next week episode, "Getting Off" are killing me! A lot of exciting things I look forward to but also the unavoidable confrontation...Pretty sure I'll be balling my eyes out from the beginning till the end in front of the computer screen!

Things that are exciting about this episode:
1) Mamie Gummer (the daughter of Meryl Streep!) is back!! So great to see her again!!
2) Sarah Silverman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Things I don't like:
Alicia thinks about Will. No, Alicia, Please don't. Not Will. Kalinda is the one.

Things that will rip my heart apart:
1) Kalinda and Alicia in Alicia's office. "You don't explain anything. You slept with my husband. You do not say anything after that." "I swear I'll scream at the top of my lungs if you don't get out of my office now."
2) Kalinda breaks down in the elevator.

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Come here, BB...Let me hug you...
Kalinda is a BAMF, a cold heart bitch...but not when it comes to Alicia...See how affected is she by this mess? She's totally heart-broken...She never wants this to happen...It's never her intention to hurt Alicia..That's why she'd been trying to bury the secret and didn't tell Alicia the truth...because she doesn't want to hurt Alicia...Look how hurt is she when she knows her one-time mistake had hurt Alicia...She never know the consequences will be this bad...She never know the price she has to pay for becoming Kalinda from Leela will be that big...

Gahhh!! Archie Panjabi and Julianna Margulies are so freaking brilliant!! Please give them all the awards!! I will go on a raid if they didn't get the nominations from Emmy, Golden Globe and SAG!! They better get at least an award for their great acting in this season!!

Finals time...again....

Went down to KL despite I need to study for my finals...Got my baby Fed 5c on Saturday!!

Love it so much!! Can't wait to start shooting! :)
Bought Malinda Lo's "Huntress" too when I was there! Her second book after "Ash"...

Just started reading...I'm not a big fans of Fantasy fiction, but I like her book...She's one of my favourite lesbian fiction author...

Officially moved in with my friends when I came back to Kampar. Everything is good and happy but I'd lost my "privacy"...I can't go to my Tumblr and tibette.com...I need my tumblr and tibette fix...

To fill that void, I went to livejournal and surf Archie Panjabi's livejournal community...

I am so obsess with her now! Her face is so perfect!! She's so fucking brilliant as Kalinda Sharma in The Good Wife!! I want her leather jacket and boots!!!

And. I started reading Kalinda / Alicia fan fictions...I have so much love for them now!

Source : http://discardedtracesoflove.tumblr.com/post/4975682141

Before this, I'm kind of a Alicia/Peter shipper...But now, I'm a Kalicia shipper!! Rewatching a few episodes of TGW and flailed over them, even it's a very small interaction...

Can they become canon? I want them to be canon!! Ahhh, I love Kalinda Sharma and Alicia Florrick!!

Vintage Camera FEVER!

So, next month will be my big 20th birthday...And, I'd decided to buy myself a big present! I've been interested in photography since I don't know when. There're a few occasions when I almost buy a lomo camera. After looking around, I found one thing that's even better than lomo cam, vintage camera! Completely head over heels in love with them, especially one, the FED. So vintage, so pretty!

I'm very proud to announce, I will soon become the proud mama of this beauty, FED 5c!

I can't wait to held it in my hands and take tons of pictures using it!

Actually, FED 5c was not the model I spotted and wanted to buy. It was FED 3. But, the retailer doesn't have any stock for FED 3 so I will take this instead. 

I CAN'T WAIT! :)

Ta-da-da-da-ta-da-da

Ignore the title. I don't know what to write so just crapped.

Last Saturday was a super crazy day. The craziness is divided into two types: the one that really can make you go crazy and the other one is the craziness that come out when you're really happy.

Morning: the first type of crazy.
3 continuous tests! MUET reading, writing and listening tests! Damn stress, I tell you! @@

Afternoon: the first type of crazy as well.
Cell Biology mid-term. I don't know how I did. I just vomited everything that is in my head out, that's all.

Night: THE SECOND TYPE OF CRAZY!! FYEAH!
Cell Biology farewell dinner with my lovely coursemates and Ms Alicia!

Although I don't really know all of them. But damn, all of us do know how to have fun! LOL! All I'm gonna say though is that you should feel lucky you weren't there with us! Else...I don't know...You might have lost your eardrums?? xD

After that, straight away headed to pool center with a few of my friends. [Declaration: It was my first time going to a place like this.] I think, pool is quite fun. I would like to play again. :)

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Changed a new theme for my tumblr and added a background image I made myself. I love it and feel so freaking proud of myself! LOL.

It's TiBette, no one else. It'll always be them. And because of them, I'd gained some new followers! It's the most new followers I'd ever gained in one day! So happy now! :)
p/s: will not stop staring at my new theme for a few days!

Dame Helen Mirren, another perfect human being

Finally posting after a long time and it's another flailing post. I'm seriously good at flailing, just saying.

I have a confession, there are two over-60 women who I secretly lust over, erm, that sound kinda wrong since I'm just 20 [Yes, I'm finally accepting the fact that I'm going to be 20 this year]. Let me reconstruct the sentence. There are two over-60 women who I really like and admire and will kill to have the chance to make out with them. Better?

They are the fucking amazing and talented and beautiful and flawless and hot and the HBIC, Meryl Streep and Helen Mirren!

Meryl Streep

Dame Helen Mirren

Among two of them, the subject of this flail post will be Dame Helen Mirren! I strongly believe there'll be a chance in the future for Meryl Streep to make an appearance on my blog. So, let's focus on Helen Mirren today!

Okay, before I start flailing, I have one suggestion, can we let's just forget for a while the fact that Helen Mirren is 65 years old and she's indeed almost the same age as my grandmother? Because just the thought of it make me feel dirty. And no, I don't want to make out with my grandmother. I just want to make out with Helen Mirren. Are we clear? Yes? Then, let's start!

Last Saturday, Helen Mirren was the guest host of Saturday Night Live. People, she's so fucking perfect and hilarious! I laughed at every single of the sketch which she was involved! She was so good, all I could think of while I was in the lectures today was her! She effing invaded my mind! #perfecthumanbeingisperfect

The opening was perfect! The pictures of her? I CAN'T EVEN.. Can she be any cuter in that sailor dress and hat? UNF...

 

"You see, I might be appointed  the Dame of British Empire but I'm not all scones and teacups. I'm more biscuits or....D-cups!" #fuckingaccurate #blessyoudcups

In the first sketch, Helen Mirren spoofed another HBIC, Helena Bonham Carter! OMFG! You have no idea how hard I'd laughed!! xD

 "We live in Eternal Night." #perfectisperfect

The digital short...which is the most epic I'd ever seen on SNL is about....Helen Mirren's beautiful and magical D-cups breast! #izdead

"You're in a place that is much better than heaven. You're in Helen Mirren's titties." "Oh, Hellen Mirren maybe 65, but her titties exist in a place beyond space and time." "Yes, it is quite intense, I was told." #iwanttogotothere

Nasim's orgasmic face is epic! I want to be her, I want to grab them too!

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And, I can't believe Kristen Wiig effing motorboated Helen Mirren's boobies!! LMAO!! I want to stick my face on that, like Kristen.

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Another epic sketch of Helen Mirren is her as the violent Julie Andrews!

"Now apologize!...I don't believe ya!" "And here's your spoonful of sugar!" #badassmothafucka

I leave this until the last, because I flailed super hard at this! It is the most surprise and epic sketch in the whole show! Helen Mirren, why you so perfect? She effing kissed a girl in this sketch! #CREYS #RAINBOW #DOUBLERAINBOWS

"But it is mine...."

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Abby, you lucky bitch! You get to kiss Helen Mirren even just for a few seconds. Do you know how many people would kill for that? #helenmirrenletsmakeout


Okay, I'm done flailing. And, I'm dead too. After reading this post, people who don't know I'm a perv will definitely know I'm one now. Whatever, I don't care! All I care is Helen Mirren and her amazing D-cups and lips.

Last note....Dame Helen Mirren, please be mine!