Hello??

Yup, it's a post from me after MIA for 2 months. I'm not sure though if there'll ever be a next post after this from me.

I have a lot of things to say but I just don't have the time to do this anymore. 2nd year of degree is killing me. I've never feel as pressured as now in my 20 years of life.

Not only university, my heart decides to mess with my life as well. FUCK. I don't want to talk about it very much. I want her to get out from my head and heart. Why am I thinking of her all the time? Sometime I just wish that I don't have feelings and emotions.

Thanks to these chaotic messes in my life, I've neglected one of the most important thing in my life, friends. I'm such a horrible friend recently. I want to say I'm sorry as I don't know what's going on with your life anymore.

Damn it! I really want to leave all of these bullshits behind and run away. Any where else as long as it's not here.

I want to cry but it's just a waste of time and energy. They won't go away. They will still be here mocking me and pushing me around.

Getting Off

The Good Wife has freaking invaded my mind!! I just can't stop thinking about it..CBS is making it worse by releasing those heart-breaking promos.. T^T

Next week will be the final second episode...Oh god, the Kalinda / Alicia relationship will still be a mess in the season finale and my fragile shipper heart cannot take this...I HAVE TO WAIT FOR 3 MONTHS TO SEE THEM AGAIN! (if it gets pick up for Season 3...IT WILL...or I'll die..)

"You mean someone who hadn't slept with my husband? How was my husband? Was he good?"

Gosh, Alicia...I know you're hurting but this is so harsh...My dear Kalinda... T________T

The promos for next week episode, "Getting Off" are killing me! A lot of exciting things I look forward to but also the unavoidable confrontation...Pretty sure I'll be balling my eyes out from the beginning till the end in front of the computer screen!

Things that are exciting about this episode:
1) Mamie Gummer (the daughter of Meryl Streep!) is back!! So great to see her again!!
2) Sarah Silverman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Things I don't like:
Alicia thinks about Will. No, Alicia, Please don't. Not Will. Kalinda is the one.

Things that will rip my heart apart:
1) Kalinda and Alicia in Alicia's office. "You don't explain anything. You slept with my husband. You do not say anything after that." "I swear I'll scream at the top of my lungs if you don't get out of my office now."
2) Kalinda breaks down in the elevator.

Source: afraidtobelieve-.tumblr.com

Come here, BB...Let me hug you...
Kalinda is a BAMF, a cold heart bitch...but not when it comes to Alicia...See how affected is she by this mess? She's totally heart-broken...She never wants this to happen...It's never her intention to hurt Alicia..That's why she'd been trying to bury the secret and didn't tell Alicia the truth...because she doesn't want to hurt Alicia...Look how hurt is she when she knows her one-time mistake had hurt Alicia...She never know the consequences will be this bad...She never know the price she has to pay for becoming Kalinda from Leela will be that big...

Gahhh!! Archie Panjabi and Julianna Margulies are so freaking brilliant!! Please give them all the awards!! I will go on a raid if they didn't get the nominations from Emmy, Golden Globe and SAG!! They better get at least an award for their great acting in this season!!

Finals time...again....

Went down to KL despite I need to study for my finals...Got my baby Fed 5c on Saturday!!

Love it so much!! Can't wait to start shooting! :)
Bought Malinda Lo's "Huntress" too when I was there! Her second book after "Ash"...

Just started reading...I'm not a big fans of Fantasy fiction, but I like her book...She's one of my favourite lesbian fiction author...

Officially moved in with my friends when I came back to Kampar. Everything is good and happy but I'd lost my "privacy"...I can't go to my Tumblr and tibette.com...I need my tumblr and tibette fix...

To fill that void, I went to livejournal and surf Archie Panjabi's livejournal community...

I am so obsess with her now! Her face is so perfect!! She's so fucking brilliant as Kalinda Sharma in The Good Wife!! I want her leather jacket and boots!!!

And. I started reading Kalinda / Alicia fan fictions...I have so much love for them now!

Source : http://discardedtracesoflove.tumblr.com/post/4975682141

Before this, I'm kind of a Alicia/Peter shipper...But now, I'm a Kalicia shipper!! Rewatching a few episodes of TGW and flailed over them, even it's a very small interaction...

Can they become canon? I want them to be canon!! Ahhh, I love Kalinda Sharma and Alicia Florrick!!

Vintage Camera FEVER!

So, next month will be my big 20th birthday...And, I'd decided to buy myself a big present! I've been interested in photography since I don't know when. There're a few occasions when I almost buy a lomo camera. After looking around, I found one thing that's even better than lomo cam, vintage camera! Completely head over heels in love with them, especially one, the FED. So vintage, so pretty!

I'm very proud to announce, I will soon become the proud mama of this beauty, FED 5c!

I can't wait to held it in my hands and take tons of pictures using it!

Actually, FED 5c was not the model I spotted and wanted to buy. It was FED 3. But, the retailer doesn't have any stock for FED 3 so I will take this instead. 

I CAN'T WAIT! :)

Ta-da-da-da-ta-da-da

Ignore the title. I don't know what to write so just crapped.

Last Saturday was a super crazy day. The craziness is divided into two types: the one that really can make you go crazy and the other one is the craziness that come out when you're really happy.

Morning: the first type of crazy.
3 continuous tests! MUET reading, writing and listening tests! Damn stress, I tell you! @@

Afternoon: the first type of crazy as well.
Cell Biology mid-term. I don't know how I did. I just vomited everything that is in my head out, that's all.

Night: THE SECOND TYPE OF CRAZY!! FYEAH!
Cell Biology farewell dinner with my lovely coursemates and Ms Alicia!

Although I don't really know all of them. But damn, all of us do know how to have fun! LOL! All I'm gonna say though is that you should feel lucky you weren't there with us! Else...I don't know...You might have lost your eardrums?? xD

After that, straight away headed to pool center with a few of my friends. [Declaration: It was my first time going to a place like this.] I think, pool is quite fun. I would like to play again. :)

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Changed a new theme for my tumblr and added a background image I made myself. I love it and feel so freaking proud of myself! LOL.

It's TiBette, no one else. It'll always be them. And because of them, I'd gained some new followers! It's the most new followers I'd ever gained in one day! So happy now! :)
p/s: will not stop staring at my new theme for a few days!

Dame Helen Mirren, another perfect human being

Finally posting after a long time and it's another flailing post. I'm seriously good at flailing, just saying.

I have a confession, there are two over-60 women who I secretly lust over, erm, that sound kinda wrong since I'm just 20 [Yes, I'm finally accepting the fact that I'm going to be 20 this year]. Let me reconstruct the sentence. There are two over-60 women who I really like and admire and will kill to have the chance to make out with them. Better?

They are the fucking amazing and talented and beautiful and flawless and hot and the HBIC, Meryl Streep and Helen Mirren!

Meryl Streep

Dame Helen Mirren

Among two of them, the subject of this flail post will be Dame Helen Mirren! I strongly believe there'll be a chance in the future for Meryl Streep to make an appearance on my blog. So, let's focus on Helen Mirren today!

Okay, before I start flailing, I have one suggestion, can we let's just forget for a while the fact that Helen Mirren is 65 years old and she's indeed almost the same age as my grandmother? Because just the thought of it make me feel dirty. And no, I don't want to make out with my grandmother. I just want to make out with Helen Mirren. Are we clear? Yes? Then, let's start!

Last Saturday, Helen Mirren was the guest host of Saturday Night Live. People, she's so fucking perfect and hilarious! I laughed at every single of the sketch which she was involved! She was so good, all I could think of while I was in the lectures today was her! She effing invaded my mind! #perfecthumanbeingisperfect

The opening was perfect! The pictures of her? I CAN'T EVEN.. Can she be any cuter in that sailor dress and hat? UNF...

 

"You see, I might be appointed  the Dame of British Empire but I'm not all scones and teacups. I'm more biscuits or....D-cups!" #fuckingaccurate #blessyoudcups

In the first sketch, Helen Mirren spoofed another HBIC, Helena Bonham Carter! OMFG! You have no idea how hard I'd laughed!! xD

 "We live in Eternal Night." #perfectisperfect

The digital short...which is the most epic I'd ever seen on SNL is about....Helen Mirren's beautiful and magical D-cups breast! #izdead

"You're in a place that is much better than heaven. You're in Helen Mirren's titties." "Oh, Hellen Mirren maybe 65, but her titties exist in a place beyond space and time." "Yes, it is quite intense, I was told." #iwanttogotothere

Nasim's orgasmic face is epic! I want to be her, I want to grab them too!

[credit bill-adama@tumblr]

And, I can't believe Kristen Wiig effing motorboated Helen Mirren's boobies!! LMAO!! I want to stick my face on that, like Kristen.

[credit jesusgregkinnear@tumblr]

Another epic sketch of Helen Mirren is her as the violent Julie Andrews!

"Now apologize!...I don't believe ya!" "And here's your spoonful of sugar!" #badassmothafucka

I leave this until the last, because I flailed super hard at this! It is the most surprise and epic sketch in the whole show! Helen Mirren, why you so perfect? She effing kissed a girl in this sketch! #CREYS #RAINBOW #DOUBLERAINBOWS

"But it is mine...."

[credit bill-adama@tumblr]

Abby, you lucky bitch! You get to kiss Helen Mirren even just for a few seconds. Do you know how many people would kill for that? #helenmirrenletsmakeout


Okay, I'm done flailing. And, I'm dead too. After reading this post, people who don't know I'm a perv will definitely know I'm one now. Whatever, I don't care! All I care is Helen Mirren and her amazing D-cups and lips.

Last note....Dame Helen Mirren, please be mine!

Earth Hour - 26/3/2011

the only thing that's giving out light in my room

I'm sitting in the dark..turned off my light at 8.30 pm to support Earth Hour...Let's save our earth mother! :)

busy busy life

Life is busy...so many mid-terms and presentations coming up...pfft...I need to stay strong...I shall not be defeated...Just hang on...

Had political science presentation today...One word for it : SUCK...Damn, I think this time it's the worst among all the presentations we had...So sorry to my group members because my lappie died suddenly when we were still presenting.. :(

Tomorrow morning have Pengajian Malaysia mid-terms...Gotta study and memorize...but, before that, nap first...

Taking the nap now..Tata..

first time wearing colour cons..hehe.. :P

Someone Like You by Adele

I heard that you're settled down, 
That you found a girl and you're married now, 
I heard that your dreams came true, 
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you, 
Old friend, why are you so shy? 
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light, 

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, 
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it, 
I had hoped you'd see my face, 
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over, 

Never mind, I'll find someone like you, 
I wish nothing but the best for you, too, 
Don't forget me, I beg, 
I remember you said, 
"Sometimes it lasts in love, 
But sometimes it hurts instead," 
Sometimes it lasts in love, 
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah, 

You know how the time flies, 
Only yesterday was the time of our lives, 
We were born and raised in a summer haze, 
Bound by the surprise of our glory days, 

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, 
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it, 
I had hoped you'd see my face, 
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over, 

Never mind, I'll find someone like you, 
I wish nothing but the best for you, too, 
Don't forget me, I beg, 
I remember you said, 
"Sometimes it lasts in love, 
But sometimes it hurts instead," 

Nothing compares, 
No worries or cares, 
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made, 
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? 

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you, 
I wish nothing but the best for you, 
Don't forget me, I beg, 
I remember you said, 
"Sometimes it lasts in love, 
But sometimes it hurts instead," 

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you, 
I wish nothing but the best for you, too, 
Don't forget me, I beg, 
I remember you said, 
"Sometimes it lasts in love, 
But sometimes it hurts instead," 
Sometimes it lasts in love, 
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Saw you in the hall way a few days ago and... I realized that I'd finally let you go...

Oh, my loves..

Just a little something I need to say out or I'll die...Yeah, my heart will burst from all these lovings I'm having for these people..

Dear Jennifer Beals, I love you. You're so freaking hot and fierce in 'The Chicago Code'!

Dear Laurel Holloman, I love you. You inspire me by just looking at you painting!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n89jf1gRtKA

Dear, Archie Panjabi, I love you. Your character, Kalinda is so freaking bad ass in 'The Good Wife'! 

Oh, one more thing about Kalinda. Just freaking embrace your woman-loving side already! Do you know how frustrating is it?

Dear Tess Gerritsen, I love you. Your books 'The Keepsake' and 'The Killing Place' had keep me awake for several nights!

  

That's it!! I think I will talk more about my love for 'The Good Wife' and Kalinda if I have the time! Peace out! :) 

darkest period of my life

Fucked up shit happened a few days ago.

I CANNOT HANDLE TODAY! 'The Two Mrs Grissoms' & Tim Roth

Today didn't start off well because I had to wake up early to attend morning class. However, everything changed when I came back from uni...

I'm telling you...Twitter is the best damn thing happened to internet! There's always tweets that can make me happy every single day!

The highly anticipated episode of CSI, 'The Two Mrs Grissom' promo pics are out!!!

Credits & more HQ images @ JorjaAllAround & Margamania

Sara Sidle in a night dress!! This never happen!! We'd seen Jorja in a night dress but not Sara Sidle [I know they're the same person but it's different! DIFFERENT.] !! And, Grissom's mother and Marlee Matlin!! Oh god, I don't know if I can watch this episode with a sane mind. I'm so gonna be flailing all of the time, like every single second!
You know what? This episode gonna air on the second day of Chinese New Year [my timezone]! The high of CNY + alcohols + this epic episode...I can't even imagine how I'm gonna behave and look like on that day!! Do I have to tell my family to be aware of my craziness before hand??

Then, while I was still flailing all over the promo pics, Tim Roth suddenly appear on Twitter [he hasn't tweet for a very long time] and start counting down!! I was like, 'WTF?! It's Tim Roth tweeting again!! And, he's counting down to what?? *flail*' Then, kaaaabooooommmmmm.. He tweeted 3 super adorable pictures of him and Kelli!!

Credits: @TimRothLieToMe

As if he needs more reason to make me flail aside of seeing him on Twitter again. After that, he continues with tweeting a picture of him holding the PCA trophy(?). You're very welcome, Tim! :)
Then, he makes all the fans go wild again by tweeting this...

Two epic things about this tweet:
1) He effing used the word 'Callian'!
2) He is mentioning the epic Callian scene in the finale which can make Cal and Gillian's relationship goes both way!

Though I already knew about this Callian bit from a Kelli's interview, but it doesn't make me less happier when I saw this tweet! There's only two episodes left for Lie To Me Season 3. I'm so sad it's gonna end so soon. And, we won't know if there'll be a Season 4 until May.
Dear FOX, please don't take Lie To Me away from me. I don't know what I'm gonna be like if you don't renew it.

These two things have pretty much made up my whole day! I don't know if I can take anymore excitement coming my way, if there's any!

Gonna off for a while to watch the newest episode of 'Modern Family', 'The Good Wife' and continue watching Golden Globes from where I left off yesterday. Bye! :))

Don't Look Back

Changed my blog's header and background!! Say 'hello' to my goddesses [from left: Laurel Holloman, Jennifer Beals, Tina Fey, Olivia Wilde, Kelli Williams, & Jorja Fox] and my TV OTPs [from top: GSR, TiBette, & Callian]!! :P

To make this post, longer and not so random, let me put up the MV of She & Him's 'Don't Look Back'. It just came out a while ago.

I just love She & Him so much! And, No. That's not Katy Perry if you're questioning. That's the amazingly great,  Zooey Deschanel! I know they look alike, but Zooey will always win Katy, for life! :)

I need to know if there's still hope..

I'm back at Kampar, and I'm not really in my best of mood now. After staying at home for more than one month, you can say that I'm not delight to have to come back here. I didn't get much sleep last night because my mind and heart were so unsettled. I lost my appetite too today. I just miss everything at home already. My family, my dogs, and grandma's home-cook dishes. You know what's worse? The new semester hasn't start but I can feel the stress already. I'm retaking Structural Biochemistry and I can't afford to fail one more time.

All of these feelings are suffocating me. I feel like I'm drowning and there's nothing I can hold onto.

Last night at home

[One of my 2011 resolutions : Use and type more Chinese. So...]

糜烂的日子即将要结束，明天，就要回金宝了。也不是舍不得了。只是想到要回到那个死城就有点伤心。不过，下一次回来家的时候就是华人新年了，尽量用这来安慰自己。

昨天趁所有人都在家，就来了个每年新年之前必要的大扫除。

堆在家里个个角落的东西，看起来不多也不怎么碍眼，可是清理起来才知道原来没用处的东西还真多！别说其他地方，单是我的小橱就有好多东西；旧杂志最为夸张。反正堆在那里也没用，所以就先整理它们了。把我要的页面或海报剪下，其余的就丢了。

翻阅旧杂志的时候，发现了好多我以前没发觉的东西！比如：

Medical Investigation's poster!

看到这的时候，兴奋得快大喊了！是 Kelli Williams！虽然只是一小个在海报的一角，不过还是很开心啊！哈哈... 

下一个发现的，让我比发现 MI poster 时更兴奋了...

Tegan and Sara's poster

我都快哭出来了！我终于有她们的海报了！一直以来就怨恨着自己没拥有关于 T&S 的东西。原来，我是一直拥有着的... 感谢你，Galaxie Magazine！我高中时的零用钱果然没白花了。呵呵。正在考虑着要不要带回金宝黏在房间的墙壁上... 真的很喜欢 T&S 和她们的歌啊！:P

剪下了一大堆有关于 CSI、House、30 Rock 的海报和文章后，终于把旧杂志从我的小橱给清走了。我的小橱顿时间多出了好多空间，看起来好空荡哦！呵呵。

接下来整理的是我近几年才开始狂买和收藏的...英文小说。不整理也不知道... 原来，我已经买了很多！都快将近 60 本了！

my LGBT book collection

my most favourite crime fiction, The Millenium Trilogy

my favourite author, Cecelia Ahern's books

my proudest collection, CSI novels!

除了这些，还有很多不同作者的小说。不过，这些是所有我拥有的小说里的最爱，我的宝贝们。哈哈！

之前，所有书都是用空位就放或塞。 昨天就把它们从小橱里拿出来，然后再照着分类重新摆回去。

在清理小橱时，还找到了以前用来藏 “宝贵” 东西的铁盒子。我竟然在里面找到了钱！RM 101！哈哈！

清理了一整天，终于把我的小橱给整理好了！比之前多出了许多空位， 也变得整齐多了！:)

这里整理好了，那么什么时候轮到在金宝的房间呢？

再看吧！打扫和整理这类的活，不是什么时候都能的，得看本小姐的心情！哈！

最后，让我臭美一下。放上今晚出门去生日宴会前的自拍照！>.<

p/s: 今天其实去剪头发了。不过没什么大改变...

Happy 2011!!

Happy New Year!! It's 2011 already!! So fast...I'm unofficial 20!! >.<

Haven't blog for a few weeks..been busy vacationing..LOL! No, seriously..I've been travelling here and there..

Here = Langkawi

Went to Langkawi with my bffs, Sunny, Chien, Yuan and Shian on 28th December..Had a lot fun there with them...Bought a lot of chocolates before we came back!! >.<
Let's do this again. my dears!

Then, I went to...

There = KL & Fraser Hill

LOL..that's my uncle in the background!

On 31st December, New Year's Eve I broke my own record...I drove to KL from Alor Setar all by myself! Impressive isn't it? I'm so brave..LOL..Spent the last night of 2010 at KL...Then, at the 1st day of 2011, went to Fraser Hill with my families...Love going out with them...

The next day, came down from Fraser Hill and....BAAAMMMMM....I fall sick...fever and cough... >.<
I don't know how I did it..But, I managed to drive to Mid Valley alone after swallowing two pills of Panadol...I should've been very high and sleepy after that, but I didn't feel anything...I think it's because the power of BOOKS! xD

Bought these..RM 200 ++ gone...But, don't care...I'm sick, these things make me feel so much better... :P

Is back at home again two days ago, fever is gone, but the cough still torturing me...I'm gonna live the next few days in blur mode because of the super strong cough syrup...I'm even blurring while typing this...So, please bear with the grammar mistakes and spelling errors if there's any...


In the end, I would like to say Happy New Year who drop by my blog and wish all of you have a great year ahead...

p/s: Nothing big happen on me since the start of 2011..However, on the 6th day of this year, today, good thing and bad thing came together...The good thing is Lie To Me and Tim Roth won PCA! [So so happy and congratulations to the crew and casts! FOX. did you see this?? People chosen LTM, they want LTM..Where is the Season 4?? I'm still waiting!!] And, the bad thing is some SOB broke into my hostel! [Argh! You better pray that you haven't steal or damage my 'babies'! Especially, my TLW photobook and JYJ limited edition 'The Beginning'..Else, I'll hunt you down, cut off your balls then throw them into the lake to feed whatever living things live inside it!]